Saturday, March 7, 2009 by AmberLily
I probably should have taken my drying contact lens out of my eyes before recording this, but hey, my constant eyelash-batting does help add to the "she's totally crazy/insane" quality to this late-night vlog entry that I hope you'll find endearing. Or at least somewhat informative and/or entertaining since you're wasting 5+ minutes if you don't.
Should you *not* take time out to watch it, say just perhaps you're only interested in *reading* about what's going on, here's the summarized version: We are moving back home to Southern California soon. How soon? Maybe like end of April soon. I'm not sure if I'll be able to get back to being a stripper (though I certainly hope to, if not SoCal then maybe Vegas from time to time - I didn't mention that Vegas part in the video but yeah...) but I do plan on keeping up with my website/camming stuff. I'm gonna try to update as regularly as I can up until the move and then be tied up for a couple of weeks and get back to it once we're just the slightest bit settled. Most of my die-hard members are pretty understanding. Big shit happens when a family member passes. Our main goal is to get back to our remaining family members and friends and feel more like life can start again.
I've felt like everything's been "on hold" ever since last March when we moved to Seattle this last time. I kept telling myself, "Oh, I'll do that after we unpack..." - "Oh, I'll do *that* after we move to the next apartment..." - "Oh, I'll do *THAT* after the weather gets better..." Makes things awful tricky when that's all you get to do. Instead of DOING things to make myself feel more at home here, I've deliberately put them off because there was always that next big something looming on the horizon. Too many moves. Too many changes. Too much work. Too little time. Being back in a more familiar surroundings and an easier-to-live-in backdrop is what I've been hoping for a real long time now. So while I'm not excited about packing and the actual headache that is moving, and I will miss being near Trixie & Delia, I am super relieved. I must sigh twenty times a day now knowing that our time here is drawing to a close. I know that Southern California is a good fit: it's home.